EAGP

Wow I kinda want to delete my last post; although I really did feel like ERUGHGHGHGHGHGH, crying doesn't help or solve anything. Its just wasting your energies when you could be doing something more constructive...

Sometimes, when I smile at the world, inside the emotions are just trying to eat me up... You know what I mean? Like I'll say something, and mean something else... Which leads to another thing: appearances.

Everyone seems to want to groom theirs to match it the way they want to, but that just ain't so, I'm afraid. Its kinda weird how in high school so many people obsess about this and try to match their attitudes like that. All the time people are in little groups, because they're too comfortable in their own little world, expressing just one side to themselves. But no one's one-dimensional. You need to expose that multi-faceted personality. If you could, look at all the new people you could meet and talk to =] (and gain some good friends along the way)
For example, me: To one, I am a snitch, others a good friend, another a creepy stalker, and many a 10 year old nerd... (about 2 people know all the people who know me as these things =D) As I've said earlier, everyone's perspective of things changes with each different person, so you can never be that ideal person to everyone; sorry to burst your bubble =p.

On a side note, high school only lasts for so long, then its the time when YOU must account for YOUR actions. And we should treasure our childhoods, while we can do anything, as long as its not illegal =D until when you grow older and have to WORK =o (well actually I dont see anything bad about that, so I have nothing else to say on this subject..)

One last thing, if you could take someone's pain away, only for you to feel it, would you?


PS My dad's sort of getting better; sort of in the fact that he can talk and remember some stuff, but that he'll go blank and talk about random stuff next, plus he has an infection...