One month later..

OK I have missed basically the whole month of March of school...
Stuff that's happened:
2 weeks of fevers, then three days reprieve, one of which my AWESOME piedmont friends threw me a party =D (I call it a party and not a B-day party b/c it was 24 days later) and then on Caesar Chavez my [)A/\/\N fever came back. So I go to Valley Medical Center and the nurses don't know how to access my portacath OR draw blood. -.- (I have a bruise where he attempted..) And then later I was transferred to Stanford IN AN AMBULANCE! =D Yeah, it was awesome. =] And then another 2 days later I found out I had chickenpox,, so there I stayed at Lucille Packard Children's Hospital for a week and a half, in an isolation ward. yeah, it was boring. And now I'm at home, when its Spring Break, and no school... and i have chemo again this friday, so I probably can't go to school for another week =_=

*sigh* My GPA is like 2.5, I have an F in Alg 2, and I'm wayyy behind on homework...
How can I get to UC, let alone my dream schools (Stanford/Princeton) with this...?
I know its beyond my control, but its just SO frustrating... And the fact that my cance can come BACK, is depressing too... The doctor said 85% survival rate, so thats a 15% chance that my cancer will recurr. And it was a 15% chance that I would get appendicitis, and i got THAT... -.-

Ive realized that Ive only got 3 things going for me: Friends, family, and the fact that I live in the US. Everything good in my life has been attributed to one of those things. =x
Ive also realized why I laugh so much: laughter is great, because it makes you forget about your troubles, and gives you bliss for those few minutes you're laughing; everything else is pushed out of your mind.


Everything is out of my control, so I'll just go with the flow, I guess. Can't change the past, can't control the future. Just have the decisions of the present.