Meh

"Meh" as in I feel melancholy, excited, and happy (sorta)

Excited and happy that SCHOOLS OVER! And summer plans! Hoorah!

Melancholy that, we only have three more years of high school. Just three more years of fun =/

In my freshman year, stuff has happened. I've got shot down (not literally of course), friends have done stuff,( and whether I approve or disapprove of it, they ARE my friends and I feel obligated to support them in their time of need), dad's gotten an aneurysm, grades have dropped, the usual high school drama...

Other friends seem more distant, I rarely talk to some of 'em now =/ I'm moving to my grandma's house, and maybe to a new high school.

Man, I am seriously peeved by that ^ Ive been in 5 different schools the past 5 yrs: Meridian, Shawnee, Home schooled, Berryessa, Piedmont, and now maybe Independence. Besides the first 2 years, I havent had the time to strengthen the bonds of friendship =x

Which reminds me: Why are people so dang nice to me? It makes me feel bad whenever I get sick, and the fact that I didn't do anythign to deserve any of it.

I've also noticed a couple things: teenagers seem depressed. I don't know why! =o I think either Raymond or Jeffrey said it to me: I don't think what people go through is a big deal, because Im kinda used it. And I think I DO think that way, for better or worse. (I consider myself an optimistic cynist =p)

Ahh, chemo done in 6 mnths, finals coming to a close, and we're all growing older and hopefully, more mature... As the freshman year is coming to a close, I leave with few regrets. Let life come, and with it, strife, happiness, and crap.