The Past Week of Events, Emotions, and Sayings

So here was the last week in a nutshell:

Feb 14-15, 2009: Huzzah for Darren's house! The saviour of boredom!

Feb 16, 2009: Cousin's house! (I kinda think I'm a free-loader now... =S)

Feb 17, 2009: Visited Dad at new place. (More into that later)

Feb 18, 2009: Bowling with old Challenger Shawnee friends!! w00t!

Feb 19, 2009: Hospital; Vencristin and lumbar puncture, eww..

Feb 20, 2009: Happy day! Golfland, movie with Challenger friends~~yayy~~

Feb 21-25, 2009: Steroids x2 daily.. -.-"


Hmm so thats what I was up to the past week; I'm glad I have friends, both old and new =]
Must be dreadful to have none, or to be isolated inside your house, no contact with other fellow humans... *shudder* Which is what I've been doing basically the past 3 days... EEEyaahahahghghgh I gotta go to school tomorrow... *speaking of which I have 2 tests to look forward too =x*

And yes, you've read correctly; my dad got transferred to Santa Clara Rehabilitation Centre (I think) He now has no huge bandage... over his giant stitch.. on his head.. =/
(Yeahup its still painful to see him, but less)


So winter break was a blast =]
But looking at all my friends, on sports teams, having girlfriends/boyfriends, dating, knowing what they want to do with their lives (for the time being), it makes me, feel jealous.
I feel like I haven't been doing ANYTHING the past years, 'cept school. No accomplishments, achievements, nothing. I've been in the same mentality since the 6th grade. (OK im less bitchy now but still) We still have laughs, hang out, and have fun, but life is going on. We're all gonna separate sooner or later; the road of life travels in often unpredictable ways.

Dreams lead to hope, to wishes, to aspirations, to ambition, to succeed.

To dream is to attempt success...

PS Thank you for reading my mundane and rambling thoughts, whether you care or not :D

PPS Huzzah, Lucky #7 followers :]

PPPS How come no one says "Da-- yyuuumm! You lookin' fine!" anymore? Its so succinct =]

PPPPS Writing Post-scripts and Post-post-scripts is fun =D

PPPPPS I dunno, I just can't take things seriously sometimes =/
And Im not sure if that's good or bad...

The sun will come out, tomorrow! Bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow, there'll be sun...

*Sigh* Parents.... (I'm betting everyone over the age of 10 has had this sigh)

My dad's in the hospital.... I was there for 3 hours last night; and I was kind of disgruntled afterwards. I mean, it's painful to look at your dad in a state where he's mentally ill. It just hurts...
So I was there to start a conversation to make him to talk and use his brain. Oh did I mention he gets really annoyed or angry and doesn't take his medicine or pulls one of the tubes out...

And my mom is still stressed out... Only her habit if "Answer me whenever I talk to you!!!! If you don't its SOOOOOO rude!!!" has come back, tougher and meaner..

so yeahup that's it so far

oh right well on a brighter note, break; well I went to Darren's house on Saturday and Sunday; it was fun =]
Monday I went to cousins' house and today I shall attend bowling with my Challenger compadres =P. Thursday hospital and Friday Oakridge with same people. w00t!. Yay, so this break IS fun :)


in the bigger picture, the economy is still tanking, Obama failed to live up to expectations and did not take out "Buy American" in the stimulus package, or remove much of the pork, however science research and a $50 billion tax break were taken OUT -.-

Markets falling, R & D budgets slashed, workforce sheds jobs, not good..

Our political parties are kind of suckish... =x

EAGP

Wow I kinda want to delete my last post; although I really did feel like ERUGHGHGHGHGHGH, crying doesn't help or solve anything. Its just wasting your energies when you could be doing something more constructive...

Sometimes, when I smile at the world, inside the emotions are just trying to eat me up... You know what I mean? Like I'll say something, and mean something else... Which leads to another thing: appearances.

Everyone seems to want to groom theirs to match it the way they want to, but that just ain't so, I'm afraid. Its kinda weird how in high school so many people obsess about this and try to match their attitudes like that. All the time people are in little groups, because they're too comfortable in their own little world, expressing just one side to themselves. But no one's one-dimensional. You need to expose that multi-faceted personality. If you could, look at all the new people you could meet and talk to =] (and gain some good friends along the way)
For example, me: To one, I am a snitch, others a good friend, another a creepy stalker, and many a 10 year old nerd... (about 2 people know all the people who know me as these things =D) As I've said earlier, everyone's perspective of things changes with each different person, so you can never be that ideal person to everyone; sorry to burst your bubble =p.

On a side note, high school only lasts for so long, then its the time when YOU must account for YOUR actions. And we should treasure our childhoods, while we can do anything, as long as its not illegal =D until when you grow older and have to WORK =o (well actually I dont see anything bad about that, so I have nothing else to say on this subject..)

One last thing, if you could take someone's pain away, only for you to feel it, would you?


PS My dad's sort of getting better; sort of in the fact that he can talk and remember some stuff, but that he'll go blank and talk about random stuff next, plus he has an infection...