Wrongs, (W)Rights, and Weirds of Western Society

Isn't the title cool? :D (The W is there because there are so many other 'W's)

And here are my excuses for not posting: 1 I am lazy. 2 Other stuff going on 3 I doubt anyone cares anyway. \_(o_o)_/ says: holy jehosephat, its been 3 mnths since i posted :O

Lets get rid of the wrongs first shall we?

Sexism is so prevalent in society- WHERE TO STARTT~

Why is it that when people are in relationship they refer to their companion/mate/'friend' that that person *belongs* to them? Case in point: "She's mine" "He's my boyfriend" Popular media may have to do with this too tho'... ("MY Girl" ring a bell, anyone..?)

Another thing, disparities in income, unequal job opportunities, and sexual harassment at the workplace are all too common. (I dont think anyone reading cares tho so I'll move along)

And another thing, why is it in date stuff and so-and-so, the *guy* is s'posed to ask teh girl out?

Why is it that the guy pays for stuff? And why is it ok for guys to be man-whores yet when girls do it they are called 'sluts'? Why can't men wear dresses? Or shave their legs? Why MUST women shave their legs?

See what I mean...? All these double-standards for men and women alike, 'tho b/c women are always below men, its obvious to see who comes out on top: the testosterone, hairy pot-bellied man who enjoys watching people beat the &$%# out of each other (Hockey, wrestling, football, etc) I guess Hillary Clinton had it right when se said we need a woman in charge? :O

Oh and this isnt directly related to sexism, just... pervertedness. In high school. Someone shoot me... PENIS. Why do so many people laugh at that word..? Why do people make so many sex jokes...? I mea. ok theyre funny. laugh. GET OVER IT. Apparently if you dont like this sort of thing and are not obsessive over the opposite sex WOW look at that rack) you're considered homesexual. Which is not a bad thing, but COME ON!! *sigh*

Teenagers are immature... esp. teenage boys..

There are some nice things about society though; specialization of labor from a surplus of food due to the advent of agriculture enabled us to achieve great innovations. (wow WHAP is really getting to me...) Humans get emotions and and a higher intelligence ( is that good or bad..?)

Oh and tonight was a cool autumn night... (im going to blather on about my own life, srry about that) ducks in the pool, various peoples jogging, the beautiful sun setting, firemen BBQ'ing, the gentle gurgle of the creek. Makes you appreciate life... =]

Righto cheerio, the weirds: why is plural of louse lice, mouse mice but not house hice? and why then is not the singular form of rice 'rouse'? English is a weird language... Oh and WTHHH OBAMA GOT A NOBEL PEACE PRIZE???! yeappp...

PS my life stuff goes here cuz its not as important as my thoughts, in my opinion :D

auggh been sick, falling behind in hw, still cant apologize to YSI people, cant see Nancy (ALL THESE RETAKES ARE CONSUMING MY TIMEE)(andd honestly what are my chances anyway D: at the same time im thinking, man im lucky to have met her), hurted body (tailbone and knee still hurt from skating and lava mosnter =( but awesome friends, somewhat making more...? (not really) drifint apart from challenger friends, and chemo ends on DEC FIFTHHH

YAYYYYYYYY

ok thats it.. i think.. (>^_^)> on til next time, whenever that may be :D

if you still check this occasionally, i thank thee for caring :P

Meh

"Meh" as in I feel melancholy, excited, and happy (sorta)

Excited and happy that SCHOOLS OVER! And summer plans! Hoorah!

Melancholy that, we only have three more years of high school. Just three more years of fun =/

In my freshman year, stuff has happened. I've got shot down (not literally of course), friends have done stuff,( and whether I approve or disapprove of it, they ARE my friends and I feel obligated to support them in their time of need), dad's gotten an aneurysm, grades have dropped, the usual high school drama...

Other friends seem more distant, I rarely talk to some of 'em now =/ I'm moving to my grandma's house, and maybe to a new high school.

Man, I am seriously peeved by that ^ Ive been in 5 different schools the past 5 yrs: Meridian, Shawnee, Home schooled, Berryessa, Piedmont, and now maybe Independence. Besides the first 2 years, I havent had the time to strengthen the bonds of friendship =x

Which reminds me: Why are people so dang nice to me? It makes me feel bad whenever I get sick, and the fact that I didn't do anythign to deserve any of it.

I've also noticed a couple things: teenagers seem depressed. I don't know why! =o I think either Raymond or Jeffrey said it to me: I don't think what people go through is a big deal, because Im kinda used it. And I think I DO think that way, for better or worse. (I consider myself an optimistic cynist =p)

Ahh, chemo done in 6 mnths, finals coming to a close, and we're all growing older and hopefully, more mature... As the freshman year is coming to a close, I leave with few regrets. Let life come, and with it, strife, happiness, and crap.

One month later..

OK I have missed basically the whole month of March of school...
Stuff that's happened:
2 weeks of fevers, then three days reprieve, one of which my AWESOME piedmont friends threw me a party =D (I call it a party and not a B-day party b/c it was 24 days later) and then on Caesar Chavez my [)A/\/\N fever came back. So I go to Valley Medical Center and the nurses don't know how to access my portacath OR draw blood. -.- (I have a bruise where he attempted..) And then later I was transferred to Stanford IN AN AMBULANCE! =D Yeah, it was awesome. =] And then another 2 days later I found out I had chickenpox,, so there I stayed at Lucille Packard Children's Hospital for a week and a half, in an isolation ward. yeah, it was boring. And now I'm at home, when its Spring Break, and no school... and i have chemo again this friday, so I probably can't go to school for another week =_=

*sigh* My GPA is like 2.5, I have an F in Alg 2, and I'm wayyy behind on homework...
How can I get to UC, let alone my dream schools (Stanford/Princeton) with this...?
I know its beyond my control, but its just SO frustrating... And the fact that my cance can come BACK, is depressing too... The doctor said 85% survival rate, so thats a 15% chance that my cancer will recurr. And it was a 15% chance that I would get appendicitis, and i got THAT... -.-

Ive realized that Ive only got 3 things going for me: Friends, family, and the fact that I live in the US. Everything good in my life has been attributed to one of those things. =x
Ive also realized why I laugh so much: laughter is great, because it makes you forget about your troubles, and gives you bliss for those few minutes you're laughing; everything else is pushed out of your mind.


Everything is out of my control, so I'll just go with the flow, I guess. Can't change the past, can't control the future. Just have the decisions of the present.

A Quagmire of Epic Proportions!

Cool title, eh? I just wrote it to get you to read this =p Anyways, sounding off on wahat's happened so far in the past week:

Volunteering at Alum Rock YSI =D (It's awesommeeee there! Hawks, turtles, snakes, and what-not! =p and i get to learn to take care of them =]

My birthday came and passed; I am now 15! OK well nobody really cares but I like shouting useless things to the deaf world..

My dad's still in rehabilitation; he is making sense, remembers everything, BUT he acts like a man at a bar overloaded with whiskey. Basically he makes no sense and is confused about where he is at the moment... yep..

Other mundane things in my life: Grades sliding yet some more =x , doing Romeo & Juliet in english (huzzah, yea lily-livered knack-eyed whoreson!), and trying to improve the Wheel of DOOM~~!

In stuff that actually matters: Obama lifted the ban on federal funding for embryonic stem cell research, included $50 billion for relief for home-buyers, legalised medical-marijuana clubs, and basically undid much of the conservative policies Bush enacted in his terms.
Meanwhile, GM and Chrysler ARE in a quagmire of EPIC proportions, burnin' through cash, and probably to receive another bailout by the taxpayers... =.= ('Twas your fault to begin with, GM...) Oh and more troops sent to Afghanistan.



Speaking on religion (I am speaking frankly and do not intend to speak ill of anyone; constructive criticism is welcomed] :It is out-dated. Based on books thousands of years old, written by people who were ignorant of the world and its laws of nature. Of course, people need religion. It sustains a healthy mentality, and is a good framework for morals. It joins together a community, and helps others. On a note, therefore: Does prayer help? People prayed for me in church last Sunday, and i felt, awkward. Grateful that people cared, but awkward...


One more thing, depression, which we were discussing in English. Why and how do we become depressed? When are we at, or past the stage of suicide? What is the cure for it?
Here's my thoughts: 1 Life sucks. Get over it. 2 Look on the bright side, there's always someone worse off than you.

Of course, I'm sure you have different opinions, thoughts, and feelings about all this, but I'm just doing this to make you think ;D

The Past Week of Events, Emotions, and Sayings

So here was the last week in a nutshell:

Feb 14-15, 2009: Huzzah for Darren's house! The saviour of boredom!

Feb 16, 2009: Cousin's house! (I kinda think I'm a free-loader now... =S)

Feb 17, 2009: Visited Dad at new place. (More into that later)

Feb 18, 2009: Bowling with old Challenger Shawnee friends!! w00t!

Feb 19, 2009: Hospital; Vencristin and lumbar puncture, eww..

Feb 20, 2009: Happy day! Golfland, movie with Challenger friends~~yayy~~

Feb 21-25, 2009: Steroids x2 daily.. -.-"


Hmm so thats what I was up to the past week; I'm glad I have friends, both old and new =]
Must be dreadful to have none, or to be isolated inside your house, no contact with other fellow humans... *shudder* Which is what I've been doing basically the past 3 days... EEEyaahahahghghgh I gotta go to school tomorrow... *speaking of which I have 2 tests to look forward too =x*

And yes, you've read correctly; my dad got transferred to Santa Clara Rehabilitation Centre (I think) He now has no huge bandage... over his giant stitch.. on his head.. =/
(Yeahup its still painful to see him, but less)


So winter break was a blast =]
But looking at all my friends, on sports teams, having girlfriends/boyfriends, dating, knowing what they want to do with their lives (for the time being), it makes me, feel jealous.
I feel like I haven't been doing ANYTHING the past years, 'cept school. No accomplishments, achievements, nothing. I've been in the same mentality since the 6th grade. (OK im less bitchy now but still) We still have laughs, hang out, and have fun, but life is going on. We're all gonna separate sooner or later; the road of life travels in often unpredictable ways.

Dreams lead to hope, to wishes, to aspirations, to ambition, to succeed.

To dream is to attempt success...

PS Thank you for reading my mundane and rambling thoughts, whether you care or not :D

PPS Huzzah, Lucky #7 followers :]

PPPS How come no one says "Da-- yyuuumm! You lookin' fine!" anymore? Its so succinct =]

PPPPS Writing Post-scripts and Post-post-scripts is fun =D

PPPPPS I dunno, I just can't take things seriously sometimes =/
And Im not sure if that's good or bad...

The sun will come out, tomorrow! Bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow, there'll be sun...

*Sigh* Parents.... (I'm betting everyone over the age of 10 has had this sigh)

My dad's in the hospital.... I was there for 3 hours last night; and I was kind of disgruntled afterwards. I mean, it's painful to look at your dad in a state where he's mentally ill. It just hurts...
So I was there to start a conversation to make him to talk and use his brain. Oh did I mention he gets really annoyed or angry and doesn't take his medicine or pulls one of the tubes out...

And my mom is still stressed out... Only her habit if "Answer me whenever I talk to you!!!! If you don't its SOOOOOO rude!!!" has come back, tougher and meaner..

so yeahup that's it so far

oh right well on a brighter note, break; well I went to Darren's house on Saturday and Sunday; it was fun =]
Monday I went to cousins' house and today I shall attend bowling with my Challenger compadres =P. Thursday hospital and Friday Oakridge with same people. w00t!. Yay, so this break IS fun :)


in the bigger picture, the economy is still tanking, Obama failed to live up to expectations and did not take out "Buy American" in the stimulus package, or remove much of the pork, however science research and a $50 billion tax break were taken OUT -.-

Markets falling, R & D budgets slashed, workforce sheds jobs, not good..

Our political parties are kind of suckish... =x

EAGP

Wow I kinda want to delete my last post; although I really did feel like ERUGHGHGHGHGHGH, crying doesn't help or solve anything. Its just wasting your energies when you could be doing something more constructive...

Sometimes, when I smile at the world, inside the emotions are just trying to eat me up... You know what I mean? Like I'll say something, and mean something else... Which leads to another thing: appearances.

Everyone seems to want to groom theirs to match it the way they want to, but that just ain't so, I'm afraid. Its kinda weird how in high school so many people obsess about this and try to match their attitudes like that. All the time people are in little groups, because they're too comfortable in their own little world, expressing just one side to themselves. But no one's one-dimensional. You need to expose that multi-faceted personality. If you could, look at all the new people you could meet and talk to =] (and gain some good friends along the way)
For example, me: To one, I am a snitch, others a good friend, another a creepy stalker, and many a 10 year old nerd... (about 2 people know all the people who know me as these things =D) As I've said earlier, everyone's perspective of things changes with each different person, so you can never be that ideal person to everyone; sorry to burst your bubble =p.

On a side note, high school only lasts for so long, then its the time when YOU must account for YOUR actions. And we should treasure our childhoods, while we can do anything, as long as its not illegal =D until when you grow older and have to WORK =o (well actually I dont see anything bad about that, so I have nothing else to say on this subject..)

One last thing, if you could take someone's pain away, only for you to feel it, would you?


PS My dad's sort of getting better; sort of in the fact that he can talk and remember some stuff, but that he'll go blank and talk about random stuff next, plus he has an infection...